December 30, 2018

unknown regions


can you say impeach
can you say the snow
can you say cerulean and
wavering azure,
can you say the quality
of light.  no?

then say ships at sea in
unknown regions, say steer on.
past cyclops and siren those
waters deep cut through, say sail.
say
this is the heroine’s quest,

say, the universe is pressing its
palms together in a
prayer for us

(thank you, nk)

the stage


at the edge of creamy carpet are a woman’s
shoes, stillettos mostly, and one pair that
belongs to a man, untied and placed
next to each other, and as she revisits this
in her mind she wishes she would have
paid attention to the direction the toes of his had pointed, but
has an idea about that even though rewind can never
be hit in this life and if it could it would tell
a different story every time

and two cups with straws
and a drive-thru bag are litter on the table
and on the table too a pair of his pants, a sweater, and
a shirt are folded neatly and stacked by keys, a watch,
and an empty ring, and as she revisits this in her mind she realizes the
implication in her application of the word empty,
but next time,
the story may be different
and in the bedroom a woman’s clothes

are strewn across the floor, tangled
in blankets and floor pillows.  i’m not wearing them
and won’t need them quickly or
any time soon and with our eyes open we face each other,
with my eyes open i watch you, 

listen to you ask, “what about mon--”
and wonder at this weird miracle
of how you can fall asleep mid-sentence, with
such fearlessness, like a kitten asleep with its
belly exposed

and the fan chain dangles and clicks with the
rhythmic swirl of the blades, the sound
suggesting a clock, but not a clock,
and precise time is not the actual moment anyway
which is to say between us only some promises are necessary,

and you will waken soon just as quickly as you slept 
and you will leave, and in each today
the exact present exists just at the inside edge
or maybe just at the outside edge of
enough

basic math


Two apartments.
Two houses.
Two hotels.
Two kitchens
Two offices,
One rolling cart.

One table,
One balcony,
One shower. 
Three living rooms,
Three broken hearts.

One bar stool. Twice.
One broken table,
Three counters,

One desk chair,
One slipper chair,
Two coffee shops,
Five bars.

One tea house.
One broken bed.
Two couches,
One mini van,
Six rides in cars.
Several broken glasses,

Two deaths.
Two nights and 
Two mornings.

Two desks.
Five kids, Two marriages,
One divorce.

One surgery,
One bouquet,
Two sunset eyes
Two sunrise eyes.  Which come first?

We don't want to brake anymore
We don’t want to break anymore
We don’t want to break any more
We don’t want to
No photos
No families
No anniversaries.

December 28, 2018

paper kisses


what can be done with paper kisses.
they are small seeds accepted because
your legs are not nothing 

you redwood,

deep anchored enormous and
shifting perspective

from eight days away I consider taking the kisses you’ve left propped against the whisky bottle

and folding them into airplanes and sending them off to become pulp in the December rain
because there are many ways to leave and

then you swing through and up close.

but then up close 
next to you I am 

young and I forget everything else because up close everything is 
your thighs, your calves, your knees, your heat.  your stance, your hands, your cypress sap 
my tonic.

what can be done with paper kisses

small seeds of redwood accepted,
bodies of infinite and

I fold those two kisses you’ve left on the counter into fish and they swim up a waterfall

and become dragons in the sky,
free and powerful outside the current.

depression games

He asked me if I would rather
have thirty arms but every time one came near a baby the baby would die
or no arms and babies

I answered thirty arms, to his stricken face, then laughed
and said

JK!  Of course no arms; it would be hard to feed babies with my feet
but we'd make do and he said

JK!  If you had thirty arms and the babies died, then you would die too
but you would only have two arms in your coffin and everyone would think
you were a baby killer for fun.  You would be dead and couldn't defend yourself.
Now what do you choose?

and I said, I picked no arms!  I picked no arms and babies!

and I think of these moments that one afternoon,
and I think and think and can't stop:

You are in there, couched in riddles,
you are asking me to vouch for sacrifice,
to prove my love, to tell you the
exact price I would be willing to pay for you,
and the answers I give you cannot accept right now
and I am frightened by our game.






conversation

two strangers meet

pour,
pain, speak:
a cross burned on your front grass
those sinister dresses and pointed hats
and your dad.

pour,
pain, speak:
my impulse, my heartbeat
is chest-caged and free and I'm
one eyelash beyond amoeba.



December 21, 2018

sacred one

her eyes describing bloodshot lines,
suspect routes, connection sites
hackjob sutures cross-stitch town
and she checks through space
for the distance between our bodies.

the distance between their bodies
stands solid dark fossilized flow
but for stroking small gestures
midday screentime caresses
her towel dried fingers release

to type
where the fuck you at?
on a tiny keyboard.

December 20, 2018

two one none

electric stairs
to a pond of heat
crawl up double close and
breathe, breathe. i
inhale, inhale,
flip on, slide through 

so, how long did it take us to meet?
four lifetimes.  maybe three. 
you say in my eyes
you remembered to breathe
and memories braid the
literal, the figurative.
meanings of
two, one, 
none.
 

sacred too

she
glass shell, put to his ear, 
hear smoke whisper samba inside,

come move.

wide sea, carry on carry back,
hear snare drums and surdos inside,

come move.

so sway. quarter beat.
play she lips and he lips
so sway.  quarter beat
pull she to he hips

afternoons slow, the telephone left
on the desk